Healing

I am learning that healing can come slowly but it will come. I had one of my darkest days today but after working through some of my mistakes and having a honest an open talk with my son D'Arcy I feel better. I have always been a private person, trusting no one with my inner feelings most of my life. I have avoided controversy and conflict and often in the process hurt people close to me. My son helped me to understand that today.

We grieved together and when I broke down and wept, it was my son who put his arms around me and comforted me. He saved me from the despair that had brought me to a dark and destructive place. He gave me the one thing I needed most in that moment - love and in doing so he also gave me my first bit of hope in weeks.

My grieving is not over nor have I shed my last tear but perhaps now I can find my way and get through this.