It struck me just the other day that a major milestone is rapidly approaching. It was the final days of February and with March near I realized that I have just six weeks left here at MUN. I won't be completely finished but I have my final class for my Masters on April 4th.
Then I have to shoot my documentary and finish my journal. That done I will be ready to move on to the next step. How differently this all seems to be turning out. It has taken me sometime to really internalize it but I am so excited about the possibilities inherent in being single again. Now every major decision is just for me and that feels good. No more compromises and no more accommodation.
I am at a point in my life where I am becoming incredibly selective with sharing my life. Perhaps this comes with age but more likely it comes with the experience of failed relationships where the other person loaded expectations on me that I could simply never satisfy. If nothing else I have learned to be even more self-sufficient than I ever was. Not that I am not willing to share my life. I am prepared to do that but from this point on it is on my terms or not at all.
That might sound harsh but it simply means that any future partner has to be as independent minded as I am, sharing out of desire not necessity; accommodating without compromising personal integrity on either part. That may seem like a tall order but I am prepared to remain on my own rather than settling for any less. I have the scars to show that it will not work otherwise.
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