Battle of the flies and other things...

I went into the woods yesterday determined I would cut the first logs for my cabin. I soon discovered as I bent over to cut the first one that I was breathing blackflies and mosquitoes. They were not biting but I was eating them.

I dropped one log, hauled it into place and fled the woods.

But today I sent the next chapter of my journal off to my supervisor/tutor. Now I have to start filming to give me something to write about. That has to happen next week.

After lunch I watched my grandchildren chase soap bubbles and butterflies today. I also had an ice cream treat with them and then walked home while checking out every interesting stone and plant.

I just finished my stretching exercises for my back. I do it to deal with this nasty knot I have had for years. It has gotten progressively worse. One massage therapist recently told me "Stretch - stretch!" So I have been doing some yoga stretches I learned years ago - and they work. I don't wake up in pain anymore and while the knot is there still, it is getting smaller each day. I was reflecting on this as I was stretching tonight. I had this moment of true insight where I really understood that in the end we must heal ourselves. In my head I heard the phrase from the Charge of the Goddess written by Doreen Valiente:

That if that which thou seekest

Thou findest not within thee,

Thou wilt never find it without thee.

I felt a sense of peace and freedom then knowing that I was complete by myself.