Finding my way...

I am still settling into the life of the PhD student and what I have discovered is that I have to work hard at keeping a sense of perspective. It is so easy to pile the pressure on - to jam yourself into a corner when you lose sight of why you are pursuing academic studies. Sometimes you allow yourself to get so worried about the short term tasks that you have to deal with that you forget the things that drew you to pursue an issue.

I told a friend recently that I have this itch inside my head - questions that keep me awake at night. I know I may never find all of the answers that I seek but I have to search for them. I have to find some sense of order and purpose in life. I will never know the answer to the really big questions - some require me to die first. But I have learned that if I really focus on a small sliver of some huge issue I can keep my mind occupied. Perhaps I can even provide insights to others.